The Witness

Bodydharma Ajanta cave,  India I was talking to a friend yesterday, and she was telling me that for the last few days she had been in a very low, difficult place but right now, because of something I had said in class, that had changed and she was feeling very high and good.

I mentioned to her that as glad as I was that she was feeling good now, she needed not to get too attached to her new high because everything that goes up has to go down. This is something that happens quite often to many people, to fluctuate between the ups and downs of life, feeling exited when experiencing the ups and depressed when the downs appear.

But instead of focussing all our attention on the ups and downs of life, we can bring our attention into the discovery that we are neither the ups nor the downs, but that we are actually the witness1 that is aware of our ups and downs.

I hesitated writing this post (like if I should do it or not) because very few people are really interested in learning about the witness. Instead, what people are more interested in is getting the highs without the lows, and most of the new culture of self-development, the so called ‘new spirituality’ is actually about how to be more time in the highs, and as a consequence how to control the world and the environment so we can be more high without having to experience so much the lows.

And it is true that to a certain extent there is the possibility to control that, but the important part of this sentence is TO A CERTAIN EXTENT, which means that we don’t actually control the environment at all. We control it when the circumstances lead to it and we don’t when they don’t. We can control the environment only to a certain extent because the environment and even our own states of mind are not really controlled by us but by many other factors, one of them being what in Yoga is called karma, the law of karma.

Karma is often thought of in very simplistic and incorrect ways, like when somebody says: ‘it is his/her karma’, meaning that something bad had to happen to the person. But this is not really what karma is. Karma, at least from the point of view I am using now2, is everything that you have… everything. For example, let’s say you are very intelligent and have the capacity to see something and know immediately what to do. That is your karma. Which means that this intelligence was given to you as a consequence of something that happened in the past. Or let’s say you are very good at sports, or that you have cancer, or that you have three kids, or that you are tall, etc. That is your karma, which means that this ability/feature/circumstance was given to you as a consequence of some past action. (This past action does not refer to a specific action done by a particular person, but to a huge, complex, invisible ocean of events that, following certain sets of known and unknown laws, happen to come together at any particular moment to create the present occurrence.)

What happens to us, these ups and downs, are also our karma. And yes, we can control them, but no, we cannot REALLY control them because even what we can control is because of karma. Does this means that I should cross my arms and just wait for my karma to make my life? Well, if that is what you do, then that is your karma. But if crossing your arms does not feel right to you, and instead you feel that you need to go out and make your life with your efforts and your actions and your power, then that is what you need to do because that is your karma.

We cannot control the environment. Karma does. Yes, there are many modern teachings about how to control the environment, but these teachings don’t work unless it is your karma to make them work. What usually happens is that a person learns a technique that works very well for the person teaching it, and then starts teaching that technique to other people. And it may attract people that have a similar karma and it will work for them, but it will not work for all the other people that have a different karma. And so it is not the technique that works but the expression of karma for those particular people. This is the complexity of dealing with the external world.

Everybody wants to have the ups without the downs. Everybody does. I do too. But luckily (it was my karma) I was also very interested in what I call the truth. And to be interested in the witness is to be interested in truth.

The reason we want the ups without the lows is because it feels good. When we experience the highs without the lows we feel very good about ourselves, we feel happy. And this is what we all want, to be happy, to feel good.

But to know about the witness is not exactly about that. To have an interest in understanding that we are actually the witness is to go further than that. To know that there is something we call the witness—which is actually what we really are—is to know that there is something that is watching the ups and the downs. The ups and downs come and go and ‘I’, as the witness, am the one observing it.

What is this witness? The witness is the part that observes life, including my own thoughts—my ups and downs—in a way no different from observing the weather. We can call it the ‘weather of life’.

The witness is the part that observes the unfolding of the ‘weather of life’.

The witness, the ‘I’, that is not involved in neither the ups nor the downs, is the part that understands that the ups and downs belong to karma, and that karma, just like the weather, is not me. If it rains or it is sunny, I don’t call that me. We are taught very young that we are what we think, but the thoughts that appear in our heads and create our ups and downs are not really different from the weather. Like the weather, they are also dependent on a great many circumstances and events that are out of our control3.

But the witness is not affected by them.

In the beginning, when we start to become aware of the witness, and because it has this characteristic of being ‘unaffected’, it may seem that this witness separates us from the rest, from the world, and in particular, from other people. But in reality it’s being this witness what actually connects us.

It is as bodies, separate entities—which is what we believe/assume to be—what actually separates us. As bodies, I am here and you are there. I may want something from you or you may want something from me. If what you want from me is something I want to give you (and I will want to give it to you because of what I can get in return from you) there will be attraction, connection. If what I want to get is not what you want to give me, there will be opposition, and if I don’t want anything from you, nor you from me, there will be indifference. This is all the connection there is between people when we are bodies, when we feel we are separate entities.

But as the witness, we are not separated because the witness here is the witness there, the witness in ‘me’ is the witness in ‘you’. The witness is our presence, and there are not two presences. Presence is actually synonymous with love; love being a sense of unity, a sense that ‘I am you and you are me’.

And it is only when we allow ourselves to take the position of the witness, to ‘become’ the witness, when we are actually able to experience love.

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1. Witness is just a word pointing to a wordless state of being. There are different words that can point in different ways to that same state. That wordless state is not really a witness, but witnessing is one of many ways that we can talk about that state. As it is said in the very first sentence of the Tao Te Ching: ‘The Tao that can be spoken is not the real Tao.’ 

2. Karma is a very large and complex idea and I am just giving here one of its several possible definitions.

3. The deep understanding that thoughts are not under my control is a very large and complex topic in itself. I have written about it in some previous post and hopefully I will have the chance to dedicate a whole post to it.

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  1. oana

    Hi Carlos! Thanks for sharing your wonderful ideas with us. I have a question: what happens when a good part of the people around us that we interact with daily are not interested in the truth and don’t undetstand or want to hear that we are the ‘the witness’, together, that we are love?

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    • Carlos

      If you look around at the world you will see that the large majority of people do not know and are not interested in knowing about the witness. That is why the world is suffering; and that is why we are killing the planet. 
      But from the point of view of the witness it does not matter. The witness does not love. The witness IS love. The witness does not need to be loved in return. The witness does not see you as separate from itself, so it does not mind that you don’t know it. It is not that we need to transform ourselves into the witness. We are the witness, knowingly or not. It is just that if you don’t know it you will keep looking for that union outside, on things, in the world. And if you know it you find peace and freedom. But the witness is fine with both. The witness is already love, and will continue to be so, independently of our knowledge of it or not. 

      So, if you know yourself to be the witness, and can remain in this state of love and detachment, this state will permeate all things, events and people around you. So just stay with it, without showing it off, without worrying for the others, and things will start changing around you.

      I know this may sound confusing, so you are welcome to ask me again. Understanding what the witness is (or the many other names it may have) is the most beautiful and difficult thing we can do. 

  2. simona

    hello Carlos- and thank you for this .:)
    it reminds me of this wonderful guy
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4zArI0uqWY

    know him?
    love from Cluj and hope to meet soon
    s/

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    • Carlos

      Hello Simona. Nice to hear from you :)
      yes, I met him in India. He is very special…
      He goes very well for the devotional type.

  3. Andreea

    Dear Carlos,
    I am wondering, in this state of witness-ing the weather of life, (which is a metaphor i really like and understand) you say we are not affected by what we observe, but how can that be, isn’t our human nature bound to feel affected by the world around us? i mean isn’t this feature of feeling it all deeply embedded in our human nature?..and is this witnessing state, a functional state of being, can we actually live our day to day lives from this state of being? or is it rather like a state that we can access at times and then return to our ‘normal’ way of being in the world? something we tap into on and off just to remember there’s another deeper aspect of life..

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    • Carlos

      ‘We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spirit having a human experience’. 
      Spirit is just a word, and there are many other words that attempt to express the inexpressible. 
      Spirit is our awareness, our presence, our naked sense of ‘I am’ and it is not personal, but universal. It does not belong to you nor to me, nor to your mam or dad nor to your neighbor or your dog or the bee or the tree.
      Awareness is one, and it expresses trough different mediums, just like electricity is one and it expresses trough an IPad or a TV or a fan. The human or the animal or the vegetable are like clothes the spirit wears to manifest itself. 

      Spirit is not worried about our human drama.
      You can think about it in this way: imagine a 3 year old kid crying because he broke a toy. How concern will you be? If you have the time, you will embrace him and caress him, but you will not really be taken by his problem. 
      It is the same with spirit. Spirit is in a constant loving embrace of everything that is. 

      It is not a state you can access but is more like a recognition of what is there all the time. It is what is reading this words right now; what is looking trough your eyes or hearing trough your ears. It is what experiences your experience. 

      The ‘human medium’ differs from any other medium because it is given the possibility to discover and understand its own nature; and then to act from it. A bee will never know that in its essence it is ‘spirit’, but we can. 

      Of course these words barely approach the depth of your question; there is much, much more to it. 
      This discovery of what we really are is not an easy one, and it is not something that most people are interested in, but from my point of view, what can be more interesting and beautiful than it? 

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