There are several reasons why I am doing it. One is that I started to have a little tummy, and I don’t want it to let it get too happy 🙂
But I try not to stop there. I believe it’s very useful, every once in a while, to intentionally put our will to test, to strengthen it, and, in particular, to bring attention to our addictive habits.
We live in a time when people are extremely dependent on their habits.
We all want to improve our lives and to do that that, we may do many different things, like reading books or going to seminars, but we pay attention hardly any to our little daily habits. For example, for some people the thought of not having their cup of coffee is just awful… but they don’t see any problem in that. We can become so addicted to these things, so dependent on them, that we lose a lot of power and control over our lives. Just as an example, let’s say we dislike our jobs, but because our jobs allow us to do certain things we cannot live without, we stay there. It’s the same with relationships. We may be in a wrong, hurting relationship, but we may be so afraid to lose our little conveniences that we cannot let it go. These are more powerful examples, but we can see the same patterns when it comes to what we eat, food being very addictive. For example, for me sugar and bread are something that I crave. Now I’m doing much better, but still the craving comes up and I believe once in a while it is very useful to confront these needs.
So I’m inviting you to do this little exercise with me. I don’t expect extremes, because extreme things don’t work, but a little bit of challenge is good for the body, especially if there is a small addiction to something one knows isn’t good for health. If one can also lose some weight, sure! Why not? But we shouldn’t stop there. Once in a while, if we can put a little challenge to our habits, we will see how many things appear! When the moment comes, when you are tempted by a habitual desire, you will see how many excuses may come up. It is very useful to see our attachments, and not to yield to them. A small addiction can hide a big emotional blockage, like for example the fear of being alone, or our need for recognition, or our dissatisfaction with our lives.
Challenging our addictions is really a way to understand freedom.
We believe that to be free means to indulge in as many desires as they come up, to eat as much sugar as we want, to have as much sex as we feel like or whatever. People really believe this is freedom. But it is not. It is actually being a slave; a slave to my needs. Why? Because there is no end to desires. When I was younger, I was so addicted to sugar, and I was so tired of being so dependent on it, that I decided to eat so much of it that it would make me so sick that I would not want to eat it ever again. I was very sick for one day… but the craving came back three days later. It doesn’t work. Freedom is to be free from desire, not to indulge in it.
It’s a false idea of the modern consumer society that freedom means to consume as much as you want to. Freedom is actually the ability, the capability, the strength to be able to choose if you want to indulge in something, or not. Freedom, really, is the ability to choose. It is not to not have the desire. It is the possibility to say no.
And so the idea of this little diet is to play with all these ideas.
As usual, in the Yogilates classes, we take care of our body, by doing the exercises or by being encouraged to eat less sugar, and we take care of our minds, by going deeper into the psychology of our actions.
Nothing is separated from anything else, and even a small little diet of not eating wheat and sugar may be able to act as a reflection of our heart and mind.